Wednesday, August 9, 2017
His name was Jackson.
It's been 2 months now.
I can't even describe the emptiness I feel.
I miss pressing my cheek into the soft fur on the top of his head when I hugged him.
He hated looking at the camera and I'm pretty sure he hated modeling my crochet projects too, but he did it anyway because he loved me.
He was so proud of his yellow felted necklace. He was right there beside me when I made it for him.
His claws were always a little too long because he hated having them trimmed and he hated a bath even more. I had to cover the wall of the shower with chipped ham just to get him in there.
I held onto him for a month longer than I should have, feeding him pain medicine twice a day.
I knew I was being selfish, but the thought of letting him go was killing me.
I miss his bowl of water on the porch.
I miss his bed in the corner and his basket of toys.
I miss our walks together.
I miss him hogging the couch and
the look he gave me when I made him wear a hat.
I miss his long yoga toes and how they smelled like popcorn and socks.
There's a huge hole in my life now. My days are so quiet.
I've found some comfort in knowing that my boy isn't suffering any more, but my heart is broken.
I was lucky to have him with me for over 10 years.
The memories of those 10 years will live in my heart forever.
Friday, March 3, 2017
I came across this stitch project in my sewing room as I was cleaning and sorting.
I must have started it about 3 years ago.
It was just the background which is my favorite part of the whole thing, but I felt like it needed to be finished, so here it is.
I suppose I was inspired by the Robin I saw last week and the promise of Spring.
My favorite way to create is to just do it without any real plan.
Just layering and adding things that I have on hand.
Today I'll finish cleaning the kitchen and doing the laundry I think.
Not as fun as stitching, but still satisfying when it's done.
Monday, February 27, 2017
I never remember having temps in the 70's in February in my entire life.
Friday it was warm enough to dry some laundry on the deck.
Saturday there were snow flurries.
I did see a Robin hopping around the yard a few days ago so I'm hoping Spring is here to stay soon.
Wishing for sunshine everywhere.
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Another page for my journal.
Not my typical page, but I'm not even sure I have a "typical".
I folded strips of paper and tucked them into a small paper bag.
The idea is to write all the things causing me anxiety on the strips of paper, stuff them into the bag and clip it shut with the tiny clothespin.
Although I really haven't used it for it's intended purpose, just the making of it worked for bagging my anxiety.
I think it might be something useful for children who have issues with anxiety.
For me keeping busy and finding creative distractions works best.
Have a stress free day!
Thursday, February 16, 2017
I'm not sure why, but I like the look of tattered old papers and textiles.
I use these for my journal pages.
Some of this stuff is in pretty bad condition, but that's partly what I like about them.
Books and woven fabric pieces all tied up with twine.
Greeting cards and letters from the early 1900's in an old wire basket.
Feels good to have some things sorted and organized. Maybe tomorrow will be a day for creating.
Have a nice day!
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
Winter for me isn't just dark literally, it also puts me in a dark place mentally.
The cold, the snow and ice make me feel trapped and depressed.
Fear and anxiety of traveling on the ice covered roads limits my social life and I spend my days struggling to stay positive.
Illness and age have changed me. There was no fear or anxiety when I was young. Winter never held me back or put me in a dark place. I loved the solitude of living in the woods, but since I no longer work I feel like the solitude is closing in on me.
Creating these journal pages helps me to keep things in perspective. I paste my feelings onto paper, place them in my journal and try to leave them there. On days when the weather allows, I go out and then there is this blog and your blog and thank goodness for the internet…I so appreciate all of your visits and comments.
Hope your day is filled with happiness!